martinemonster

I'm finishing off work in approximately one hour, and will leave for my larp "enhetsfront" (www.collective-larp.tk). I hope the rest of the people have finished stashing the place up with nice things so that when I come, it'll be all but done...and I'm a little afraid that it won't be.

My butterflies turn into large bats when I think of my boyfriend. He'll be coming tomorrow afternoon, and I can't wait to see him...I'm afraid that something bad will happen, that he won't make his flight, that he'll see me and think: this woman can't live up to the idea I've made of her in my mind, or that I'll think it, that I'll have an empty feeling in my tummy when I see him, that we'll start arguing, and so forth and so on... I'm so scared, and so excited. I want him to go insane with lust when he sees me, and I desperately don't want to have my period when he gets here. Here's to hoping...

Every summer I make the same mistake: I participate in too many larps. This makes my summer vacation much less vacationee, and instead of being relaxed and ready for a new school year, I look forward to it because it seems to include less work than my vacations. This is of course only an illusion, and when I realize this (about three weeks into any semester) I start vigorously preparing myself for how relaxing it will be with vacation, but when the vacation hits me, I've already planned on going to so many larps that it makes me even more stressed. You see what I mean?

Anyways, I'm no trying to plan for the next larp I'm going to (next week, and I will post pictures), Moira, where I will play immeasurably
old, quite evil and without much feeling. At the same time I'm supposed to be crazy, and attached to another player, who will play the same character. We're supposed to be something like the sisters Cora and Clarice in Gormenghast, only evil and even more crazy. You obviously think that this is a larp I should have prepared for more than a week in advance right? Yeah, me too, but somehow I managed to spend so much time preparing for OUT (the western larp I went to at the end of july) that I haven't had time to prepare for this larp. I have no costume, and I think I'll fuck it up...oh well, I'll wing it.

You'd think this will teach me not to go to more than one larp a year right? I, however have no such hope...I'm a sucker...