Ups, help please?

[martinemonster]

First off, I couldn't sleep last night. I've jokingly stated that insomnia should be my thing, but I never thought that it was possible to lie awake for 3 hours straight just trying to sleep three hours? you might wonder, but why is she complaining because she had to wait three hours to sleep? that should still leave about five hours right? Wrong. I tried staying awake till I was tired, and I got tired at 4 in the morning! Then, I couldn't sleep.... Turns out, it's possible. So now I'm at work without sleeping last night. And the problem is, the other secretary is home sick, meaning that I have to manage the work of two full time employees, in half a day since I said I couldn't stay the whole day and she's likely to be sick a week.

In short, my problem is that I know I'm bad at relaxing, I'm bad at leaving things before they're finished (which is why, in my one week on full time here I got four hours overtime), and I suck at feeling good with myself if I don't feel I'm doing my best at a job. And so, how do I make sure I work enough to make myself feel like I'm contributing and holding up the fort, while making sure I actually get well this time? I cannot be sick anymore, I just can't. I'll go into a major depression! Please advise me.

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Comments

[mirazandar.livejournal.com]

uhm... hte only advice i can come up with is learn to be a zombie until you relax.

and lie in bed and do things that makes you relaxed for an hour or two before your bedtime, and not talk to the telephone for an hour or two before bedtime

it's boring, but it works for me. I sleep better if i a) try and play guitar from 8-10 and then read a book from 10-12, than if i... watch tv for instance. Although i feel all relaxed when watchign tv. It's pretty weird.

[martinemonster.livejournal.com]

You're probably right. I'll sleep better if I stop watching tv right before going to bed (and in bed)...

But what about the work situation? I can survive not sleeping, making myself sicker to make up for my work schedule on the other hand...what to do?

[mirazandar.livejournal.com]

no clue. You're still on active sickleave, right?

[martinemonster.livejournal.com]

yeah, problem is that htat won't help for my brain, when there's lots to do and I'm the only one here I won't feel comfortable saying "but I have to go home now. sorry everything is a mess and there's noone here to straigthen it. I'm not caring", cause I suck at that. :(

When one sucks at something,

[sortkatt.livejournal.com]

the best way of getting better at it is practise. Start practising!