Ever sit with a book full of sentences that are so dull that they lose all meaning to you?

*dying here*
And now I've gotten a cold. I'm snifling around in my apartment feeling sorry for myself with a tummy bloated up to a faux 3-months pregnancy due to the cheesecake I had yesterday, so worth it a headache, general tiredness and a sore troath. So unfair!

(the smart thing would probably be to take today off so I'd be bored out of my mind by tomorrow and therefore probably more inclined to study, but I'm forcefeeding myself Scale and Scope - the dynamics of industrial capitalism" instead. I figure I can probably get through a bunch of pages even though I'm all mushy on the inside. Wish me luck!)
I passed! I so passed! I would even go so far as to say that I almost nailed it! Wish I'd have said some things I didn't, forgot one article, but basically they gave me lots of praise and smiles. So awesome!

Then I picked up my next exam assignment and realized that if it had been a written exam I would have failed, because I really need to sit down and re-read the curriculum to answer this one. But hey, I have a week to prepare. See me preparing!
( Dec. 4th, 2007 01:45 am)
Okay, I have to dump some stuff on you guys now. I've recently managed to get something close to insomnia, something that happens quite often close to exams. Also, I just spent my last 5 dollars on a packet of cigarettes, even though I quit smoking and my fridge is basically empty (but hey, who doesn't love salmon fillets with salmon fillet for breakfast), and spent about 2 hours reading 10 pages from one of my books. Then, I panicked and decided I'd probably be one of those people who fail that exam (then I took another cigarette, and the feeling subsided).

All this was expected though, since it is the last two weeks of finals.

What was not expected however, was that we get our lecture assignments on Friday the 7th and not Monday the 10th. And I already told my family that I'd take the bus down to Arendal to visit them for my dad and brother's birthday. I mean, it's one thing to blow off reading the last two days before and exam, but to take a two day break during it is something quite different. I already bought my brother a great gift, and I really wanted to be there for the m since I haven't seen them in ages.

Then, to top it all off, it turns out that our application for money for the larp might be fucked for so many very boring reasons and I'll probably have to spend tomorrow, when I should have been studying for my other exam on Friday 7th, calling people and fixing things.

The world is winning this war, and I'm resenting it.
( Nov. 29th, 2007 12:15 pm)
There's always something comforting and yet oddly annoying about going for a check-up at the dentist and not having any holes. On the one hand, it's cheaper, takes less time and is generally nicer than having holes, but on the other hand, it feels like a complete waste of 85 dollars. I mean, I could have had food for a week (or almost a week), or at least gone out and partied this weekend. Instead I spent the money on some guy looking into my mouth, telling me it's all okay in there.

Why am I telling you this now, you ask. Well, I'm here at school, waiting for a woman from the foreign office to call me back, and basically I've got half an hour to kill and nothing to do. Or, that's not completely true. I could be reading. I'm just not.
( Nov. 22nd, 2007 01:59 pm)
A few days ago me and [livejournal.com profile] aj_stalin had a conversation about the different months, because aj was reminded of the song of all the months. It's an old Norwegian song where every month has it's own nice thing happening. May has the national day, august has berries, december has christmas and so forth and so on. But nobody had found anything nice to say about November. And that's really sad. So it got me thinking. What does November have that none of the other months have, and I realized that there's a very special November-mist which is absolutely awesome. But that's mostly awesome if you like mist. So, do you guys know something good that happens in November?

So far I have mist, and exams. And you can't really say that exam pressure is a good thing...It's kinda comfortable to read my flist and see that other people are stressed out too though. and look at me. Here I am, procrastrinating again to keep from staring at my blank page where there should have been awesome writing. And every time I think of it, I panic slightly, so instead I watch half episodes of pushing daisies or read my flist. I'm a bad bad student.

So how do you guys focus on stuff? I need help and advice. I used to either chain smoke while writing while drinking coffee and eating chocolate, or get drunk while writing (or do both of them together), but since I've started a new and healthier life it means I can't get drunk on week days, I gave up on chocolate and I quit smoking. And only drinking coffee does not relax me to tell you the truth. So tell me people, how do you keep focusing until you actually get something good out of your brains?
( Jan. 24th, 2007 10:37 pm)
I just took a short look backwards in my journal, and realized that I've talked too much about how sorry I feel for myself. So now I give you a post about something completely different:

My absolute above all others favourite professor Iver B. Neumann has just published his new book: "Harry Potter and international politics", a book about how literature, tv shows and movies change the way we precieve the world around us, but largely focusing on Harry Potter. Did I mention that this is the guy who will be helping me with my Masters degree? (Or, the professor who's arm I will twist until he agrees again even though I took a year off) I love that guy! I so wish I could go out and get that book tomorrow! Next week I'll so buy it! *squee*

drinking meme )
( Jun. 1st, 2006 01:58 pm)
I've handed it in. The essay and with it said goodbye to UiO for now. No more uni for me for a year. It feels strange, but kinda good. If anyone wanna come celebrate, me and [livejournal.com profile] aj_stalin will get smashingly drunk tonight...

Go me! ;)
So I started drinking yesterday at one o'clock, and haven't finished yet. The introduction is done, and I'm starting the first chapter now. 6-10 pages, here I go! Not working out.

Oh, and I checked my account, hoping to find that my pay check had come. Turns out it had, and that after I pay my bills I have, lo and behold, 200 kr to survive on this month. 200kr! That's like 4 breads and a packet of cigarettes! Please bring cigarettes home for me Marthe! Pretty please! I hate being poor...
( May. 29th, 2006 04:55 pm)
I met with the police today and reported my stolen purse. They were very nice. I like Norwegian police, polite, nice, no guns, helpful. They are so cool. :)

Then I got home and got my exam: "Gjør rede for og drøft den kommunistiske internasjonalens (Cominterns) politiske utvikling i perioden 1919-1943 med særlig vekt på forholdet til sosialdemokratiet i vesten." (Describe and discuss the 3. international's (Comintern's) political development in the periode 1919-1943 with special attention given to the the relationship with Western social-democracy.)

I guess it could have been worse, but not by much. Also, I have one and a half chocolate bars and 9 cigarettes left, and 36,50kr left in all the world. This means that in two days (if I'm very good) I will have a very tough choice. Which addiction to favour, chocolates or cigarettes...hmmm...tough choice. Oh well, I'll burn that bridge when I get to it.

I'll see you all in three days when I'm done with my bachelor (hurrah).
I did the least tactically smart thing I've ever done in an exam period: I saved the dullest and most difficult book for the last few days before the exam. Sure, I had my reasons, I had to borrow it from a friend, and when I got it I was in the middle of another book and so forth and so on. The result is still that I'm bored witless, I'm unfocused, and I have to be done reading tomorrow. there's 90 pages to go, and I have no idea how I'm gonna get it done. Crap. I small part of me actually thought that Marxist Ideology after Marx would be really interesting, and maybe it is, but this book sure isn't. God, I need that vacation...
( May. 23rd, 2006 03:35 am)
I don't like when things end. Today I handed in my bachelor essay, meaning that I have only one week of school left. Ever. (or, I'll probably take a masters next year, but first I'll be gone for a whole year and everything). Everything I do makes me feel like I'm doing it for the last time, and I've already started planning how to pack my way out of my apartment. Everybody's leaving, me too, but it's still sad. I've had some of the best years of my life in this town/university/apartment, and giving it all up is scary and bittersweet. Part of me wishes it could go on forever, and another part of me looks forward to moving on. I mean, next year, working in Leeds, hanging out with a well-earned vacation from studying will be great, I know it. And we've already found the most perfect house. :)

Also: I now have my very own degree! Go me!
( May. 16th, 2006 02:05 pm)
I just finished reading through my big bachelor essay for the last time, saved it and said: Now, I'm done. This means that I should be reading for my other exam which is in two weeks, but since I am a slob, I've been on the internet the last hour instead. Now I feel bad, but I can't focus. I think I'll take the day off and recharge my studying batteries rather than feeling bad for not being able to study. Yes, I'll do that.

On a different note. I just realized that I haven't seen a few of you people on my friends list in person. Can't you all post pics of yourself in my journal so that I can see what you look like? It would be fun, come on! It goes for the people I have met as well, I just wanna watch pictures...

I went to the greatest belle and sebastian concert on Sunday. And not only did I give Stuart a kleenex so he could blow his nose in it, I also requested a song (which they didn't play, but at least he talked to me about it on stage) and then got the set list at the end. I loved it! :) And they played all my other favourites, so I guess I shouldn't be too disappointed that they didn't play "meat and potatoes"...apparently very few people know and love that song like I do... :(

( May. 14th, 2006 03:51 pm)
I keep trying to get myself to stop sitting in front of the computer and actually do something, but each time I try I only end up eating a handful of wasabicovered green peas and then turn back to the computer. I'm bored. I have lots to do and don't want to do it. I wanna be done with school, and work, and everything, and just lie on the grass eating ice cream with [livejournal.com profile] lazerjulie, [livejournal.com profile] mirazandar and [livejournal.com profile] aj_stalin. Argh!

Btw. I took this test I found on [livejournal.com profile] aj_stalin's lj, and we're the same! Go us! Wanna dye our hair the same color? (obscure daria quote)

see how cool I am )

I'm soooo bored. Someone please cheer me up!
When I woke up the next morning I looked through my luggage, threw out the clothes that were really smelly, put the back-pack on again and left for the air port, right then cursing the stupid idea of mine of taking two separate vacations after each other. But all that changed when I was reading sources for my essay on the airport. I just got so relaxed. Nothing was the matter and on that day I managed to read 170 pages, which, to be quite honest, is a lot for me. I also met this really great guy, Mark, from Edinburg, who were travelling to Manchester. Luckily for my studying, he took an earlier train than me from Liverpool, so I could spend the three hours on the train studying. Then I got home to Aksels place, and the rest of the week was amazing. We climbed a three that hung over a lake, we went to see Dresden Dolls, the best band ever, we looked at apartments for next year, walked thorough the city center, had coffee at Starbucks, and just in general had a shiny time! I love him so much! And can't wait till next year.

When I got home, the reality of it all hit me though. I had a presentation the next day, which I was totally unprepared for, I was behind on my reading, my essay was not finished, and I promptly got sick. Now I'm sitting here, trying to convince myself that clothes are important, and that one has to actually get working even though one is sick. I don't wanna. I wanna be well before I start working again. Sigh! Not gonna happen...

You do anything fun whilst I was away? (I bothered to read three pages back on my friends page, but that's as far as I'm willing to go, so tell me people, tell me!)
( Apr. 24th, 2006 11:47 am)
Next year's vacation has become the only thing I look forward to. I'm staring at the screen not knowing what to write...still. I just realized that I've turned into one of my rpg characters (except that she's thinner than me, probably because she doesn't know how to cook to save her life). Her final semester she fucked everything up, got a major writer's block that she couldn't get rid off and ended up getting bad grades. That's how I feel now. I've never had writer's block like this before. I'm totally lost. Maybe I'll have to go to the US, buy myself a pick-up truck and start roaming the countryside too?
( Apr. 19th, 2006 07:40 pm)
I started school again today, and that of course led to major depression and panic. I don't know how I'm going to finish my bachelor-essay and read 1000pg corriculum for my other exam. Why oh why did I choose 3 history subjects in my last semester?! I'm so stupid...

Today I'm grumpy and tired since I went directly from school to work and is still not done. Too long day... Be warned all you who meet me tonight. The grumpmeister is on her way.

On a happier note I took this meme that I stole from [livejournal.com profile] chesire_monkey

my party )
I am so fed up with staring at this computer. It feels like todays big accomplishment so far is spilling ashes onto my keyboard. I keep sitting down to write my biggest historical work so far, and instead end up writing endless mails to people. No, wait, I just made todays great accomplishment: I swallowed ashes from my sigaret butts. Thank you world. My nose is running.

I hate writers block. I'm now sure: I need a break. Half a year away should do it. Does any of you guys know what to do if you want to take half a year's break from studying, but don't want to have to make down payments on your student loan?
( Feb. 23rd, 2006 03:18 pm)
Writers block?! Now?!! Crap...I only have one day left, I've hardly written anything and now my brain is refusing to work with my hands. I have nothing to say... This sucks! :(
( Nov. 29th, 2005 07:32 pm)
This must be my very worst exam ever. On Sunday I got news that a relative of mine died, I took a break and coped. Then I decided that I would survive as long as we didn't get the 150 pages I didn't have time to read. Lo and behold! Not only did I get exactly that, I also got an assignment so big it could house ten lesbian transvestites. Then, on Monday, whilst I was trying, and failing, to come up with something worthwhile for my essay, my mom calls with more bad news about my family. I take some time, but eventually cope and start writing. Today, I realized that the essay is probably going to be my worst so far, but I figure I'll deal. Then, through the mystery means that only belong to someone as clumsy as me, I manage to drive a size 3 or 3.5 nittingneedle a cm into my foot. It has yet to stop bleeding. I wonder what happens next... Scratch that, I don't even want to know!




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